We all have our own plans, dreams and desires. Especially when we are young. But we learn very quickly that life never goes exactly according to plan, and we are forced to grapple with realities that do not match our imagined idealisms. This poem pictures the struggle of accepting disappointment, and learning to gain an eternal perspective as we learn to seek first Christ’s kingdom, rather than our own.
Weaving dreams and making plans,
The ethereal unfolds
In the mind where these stand—
Jewels of desire to behold.
Rich I deem myself to be,
I write my story page by page,
Charmed by lucid fantasy,
And passion of youthful age.
There are no words, and yet,
I know it all, I am so sure;
Dreams of light I’ll not forget,
As though encased in jasper.
On and on the music plays,
The siren song of passion;
Into my future I, smiling, gaze
In such a careless fashion.
Everything is bright and fair,
There is no dreary way,
A frown, a fret, a care—
These things will not play,
Not in my song of songs,
Nor in my visions sweet.
No dissonance or raucous gongs
Will bring desire to defeat.
But then one day—it happens;
From my pleasant dreams I wake.
I sit, awestruck, as passions
A restless roar within me make.
For there they are, my perfect dreams—
Stardust scattered o’er the ground.
The shattered bits flicker and gleam
But to an empty nothingness are bound.
Stepping round the ice cold shards
I survey the dismal scene.
It all came down, this house of cards—
A useless, empty fling.
Then looking up from this cruel turn
To the steel-gray heavens above,
I feel my heart within me burn
And wish for the wings of a dove;
That I might fly above all this—
Beyond the darkness into light
And find a true and steadfast solace,
A rescue from my night.
Pegasus and Scorpius
In their proud courses run;
The glory of great Sirius
Only pales by moon and sun.
Wind and water, waves and sea,
Salty breezes, frozen steppes,
Mighty mountains, ancient trees
And tiny robins in their nests—
All the glorious grandeur here
Of nature flashes through my vision,
As before my eyes appear
Scenes of serenity Elypsian.
Had I the wisdom of the ancients,
The knowledge of Archimedes,
The eloquence of Antony,
Precision of Thucydides…
I could not, with greatest effort
Express the magnitude and beauty
Of the great creation concert
In perfect harmony of key.
Then I ponder, “Who am I?
In all this vast expanse?
Just cells and atoms, nuclei?
Result of random chance?
A speck of nothing on a ball
Flung out in time and space?
Forgotten when I take a fall?
Obscure member of our race?”
No. No I know better.
I have met Him whose name is Truth;
His gift to me is no dead letter—
His Word a comfort from my youth.
This King who made the earth and heaven,
Who rules o’er land and sea,
He stoops so low to reckon
With man His creation…with me.
Not a sparrow falls before Him
But He sees and knows it all.
From His kindness does life stem;
Nothing for His interest is too small.
I am loved and known by Him,
And His promise is to me,
A cup with mercy filled to brim
For all eternity.
Center of the universe I’m not—
That place belongs to Christ.
For mankind’s freedom He has fought,
His sacrifice sufficed.
His kingdom interests are supreme,
They take priority o’er all
Man’s infinitesimal dreams
And plans so trivially small.
He’s working out His purposes
Planned from eternity;
He works all for our good, He says.
In Him we find identity.
Sometimes when all our hopes are dashed
And disappointment all we know,
When plans are swiftly crashed,
And for dreams we get a “No”…
A broken heart may be God’s gift
To raise our eyes to better sights;
The imaginations of our hearts to lift
To much fairer heights.
To break us free from minuscule visions,
To see His bigger scheme;
A greater good to envision,
As we embrace redemptive theme.
As I find comfort in this certainty,
The gray of sky is lifted.
The rays of sun break through to me
And warm my heart uplifted.
Then gather I the stardust bits
Of dreams and plans all broken;
To give an offering that fits,
A sacrifice of love—a token…
To the Lord who lived and died for me,
The God of my eternity.